Saturday, December 6, 2008

Sister


I am waiting for the words
I have been unable to say
since that day when I was five years old
and you came into my life.

Being older,
I thought it was my job
to know.
But I never did,
and that felt
like failure.

And you always seemed so
self-contained
and bright and
lovely,
extraordinary.
Of course I was jealous!

I didn't know how
to hold you.
I didn't know
if I was
worthy.

And now
we are adults,
and on Thanksgiving morning,
I cry like a child,
and you hold me.
And I wonder what it means
to be a big sister.

I guess it means
saying "I don't know"
when I don't know,
and saying
"I love you,"
because
I
do.

Sarah, you are the poet of my heart . . .
All I ever wanted was to know that you were dreaming.
-Fleetwood Mac

2 comments:

amee said...

I love the top picture of you two. That's awesome. And your poem is amazing. This post made me miss my sisters.

Anonymous said...

Thank you...again! miss you. I love reading your poetry, give us more if you can conjur it up. I forwarded this to a friend here in Prescott.

George