Monday, June 22, 2009

Happy Birthday, Sage

On this day, two years ago, Sage Sebastian Carpenter was born. I thought I would have a lot to write today, but I am feeling quiet. All there is to say is
"I miss you. I love you.
Your presence in our lives
was a precious gift."

The first two photos were taken just after he was born. The last was taken on my 31st birthday. Sage was 6 months old.

The End

It is time for me to go, mother;
I am going.

When in the paling darkness
of the lonely dawn

you stretch out your arms
for your baby in the bed,

I shall say, "Baby is not here!"
-mother, I am going.

I shall become a delicate draught of air
and caress you and I shall be ripples
in the water when you bathe,

and kiss you and
kiss you again.

In the gusty night
when the rain patters on the leaves

you will hear my whisper in your bed,
and my laughter will flash with the lightning
through the open window into your room.

If you lie awake, thinking of your baby
till late into the
I shall sing to you from the stars,

"Sleep, mother, sleep."

On the straying moonbeams
I shall steal over your bed, and
lie upon your bosom while you sleep.
I shall become a dream,
and through the little opening of your
eyelids I shall slip into the depths of your sleep;
and when you wake up and look round startled,
like a twinkling firefly I shall
flit out into the darkness.

When, on the great festival of puja,
the neighbors' children

come and play about the house,
I shall melt into the music of the
flute and throb in your heart all day.
Dear auntie will come with puja-presents
and will ask,"Where is our baby, sister?"
Mother, you will tell her softly,
"He is in
the pupils of my eyes,
he is in my body
and in my soul."

--Rabindranath Tagore


Lea said...

Happy Birthday, Sage.

My heart is breaking for you.


Kelly L-G said...

Happy Birthday Sage. I've been thinking of you a lot lately.

Laura said...

Happy Birthday Sage. My love to you and Michael.

janis said...

Sage is a very special name to me.
Thinking of you so much, Jessie. xo

Anonymous said...

XXXX, what can be said?

love you

Anonymous said...

Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful boy. Beautiful, beautiful poem.
Love, Susan

Gray Head said...

Thank you for the beautiful poem. I am a frequent visitor to glow in the woods and have followed your story since last year. You have much beauty and bravery in the way you express the love and loss of your son.
WIth much love and understanding.


caitsmom said...

The poem is amazing. Beautiful. Happy Birthday, Sage.

Julie said...

Just wanted to say that I hope all is well with you and your family. I check in on your blog frequently and am just hoping you haven't been posting because you've been busy doing good things.